Thursday, October 28, 2010

Fiercely Loyal, Truly Blessed

Anybody who knows me knows I am fiercely loyal to the people I love and care about. I will defend friends and family faster then I would myself. From verbally defending them in an argument, to physically defending them in a full out fight-You wanna mess with them? You’ve gotta go through me first (I might look small, but I am feisty!).

Early this morning, I had a weird dream. It involved having to build a really complicated cake, my job (which has nothing to do with cakes), my little sister, and M. In this dream, my little sister kept smarting off to M, and this REALLY ticked me off. Then, for whatever reason, she told M to “go to hell”. So, I beat her up (in the dream, of course!).

As I lay in bed at 4:30 this morning, going over what had happened in my dream, I realized that could actually happen. If some one I know were to ever disrespect M like that, I would go crazy on them. I realized that while I’m fiercely loyal to all the people I love, I’m 10 xs more loyal and protective of M then everyone else (save for Robbie, but do I really need to say that?). I sat there for a few minutes trying to figure out why that was. Then it came to me. My protectiveness over her is like that of a mama bear over her cubs. She’s not my cub, BUT, she has my cub. She is my baby’s mother. If something happens to her, then my son looses his mother. And while I know it’s not in my control, I have this overwhelming feeling that I can’t let anything happen to her. I will do just about anything to protect her.

The amount of love and respect I have for M is immense. She is honest, keeps her promises, is consistent, and is an excellent mother. I am truly blessed to have her as my “baby mama”


Anonymous said...

Loses not looses.

loose= not tight, ill fitting.

lose= to go without, to have something missing.

Not Just A Birth Mom said...

Yeah, I know the difference. Sorry if I have a typo every now and then.

Sheyann said...

Wow first commenter. Seriously? Ashleigh, I love that you're fiercely loyal to those you love. :) It is a wonderful attribute to love so deeply.

Meg and Ken said...

Anonymous = LOSER!

Your baby's mama is very lucky you have her back! Typos and all! lol :)

LeMira said...

I ALWAYS love your blog posts, always. I look forward to them, and this one made me cry.

I want you to know that I gave you a blog award today on my blog -- you earned it!

Not Just A Birth Mom said...

I know, I found it a few minutes ago when I was checking out your latest posts! I am so touched, thank you!!


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